I'm a week shy of 26 but still I seem to be in some bullshit. Why the fuck do i make the choices I make? Why can't I live drama free? That was my new years resolution to stay drama free advance my career and stop smoking cigarettes. (Meat Loaf had a song called 2 out of 3 ain't bad). No matter what i do I can't shake the bullshit. Jealous niggas sending me threats long distance. Don't know how long my relationship is gonna last because it's so rock right now. We both on different wavelengths. I'm one place she's in another. It's bad enough we are in different places but every conversation we have is an argument and frankly its bothering me.
So what should I do ya'll should I stay or should I let it be like Paul McCartney. It's not a simple situation there is alot at stake here. Things that I'm not gonna indulge at this time. Let's just leave it at alot at stake. I've been happy for a minute but now it's like shit ain't the same. Is it me? Of course not I'm a cocky son of a bitch but I'm willing to step back if i feel like I'm doing wrong.
Am I really ready to retire? Yes I am. I have no doubts that I'm ready to settle and chill the fuck out. I can't let small shit like jealous ass niggas get in the way of me being happy. So that means I have to tell myself to be easy and not worry about people. So that means hit the studio and vent that shit out in the booth.
